When our predictable ways of responding to challenges don’t seem aligned with who we want to be, we have the ability to respond differently. When we're caught up in the moment, we don't give ourselves the space and the option to consider a different type of response, but that doesn't mean we are not capable of it. In order to respond differently, we simply need to give ourselves a bit of space and pause (something my client's often hear me say:)). In pause, we have the option to notice what we usually tend to do and then we have the option to decide if we actually want to that this particular time. We give ourselves a choice. Asking ourselves: How would a version of me that I aspire to be respond to this challenge? helps us zoom out of our habitual ways and be intentional in what we do and how we do it. Happy journaling! Whatever we keep hidden from ourselves stays in the dark and feeds off of shame and secrecy.
Only when we are ready to be honest with ourselves and when we are ready to admit to ourselves the truth, we can invite change. Admitting the truth to ourselves can look like acknowledging what we feel, what we think, what we like, what we don't like, what makes us angry and why it makes us angry. Saying it aloud to ourselves or someone trusted, or writing it out without evaluating it. Acknowledging it and allowing it to be there is a powerful start. In the self-improvement space, it's not unusual to hear people say they want to be the best version of themselves and reach their full potential. But who is that best version of ourselves? Why does it always feels out of reach? What's wrong with this current version? And is this potential everyone demands is so important even reachable? Working to reach our full potential implies it is something we achieve after we take a specific set of steps. It's where we get to after we "work on ourselves." But what exactly are we working towards? Promises, promises... Continuously bettering ourselves can feel meaningful, even superior. It is seductive because it keeps alive promises that supposedly await at the end of this pursuit. Directly or indirectly, it promises a psychological state of serenity, bliss, actualization, wisdom, and an existence of no suffering, no insecurity, no rejection; an existence filled with confidence, fulfillment, success, abundance... It promises transcendence of an ordinary existence. So in order to not settle, or God forbid be an average person, we keep pursuing and seeking and improving and healing. But so frequently these attempts to reach our full potential feel like attempts to escape, rise above, and heal ourselves out of basic human experiences. The reality is... When we embark on the quest of chasing something illusive and nebulous, as it often is the case with becoming the best version of ourselves, it can easily turn into a never ending pursuit that doesn't have a clear definition, hence no clear arrival point. So, I conclude that reaching one's potential simply isn't reachable, it CAN only be a continuous chase. A quest that briefly soothes those feeling lost and confused because it will keep one busy, committed, and exhausted! It may feel like a full time job. A constant analysis of one's deficiencies and limitations. A never ending quest of fixing oneself and trying to heal ourselves out of normal human experiences. It becomes an exhausting chase of a future ideal that can never be completed. And the more we chase it, the more we feel broken, unworthy, and never as happy as we "could" be. Giving up the chase is not a defeat. Giving up on the idea of reaching our full potential may feel like a defeat. But it doesn't have to be if you're open to a different perspective. The chase makes us preoccupied with what we're lacking and with what's wrong with us. It takes us away from wholeness and the aliveness of this moment, which is the only moment we actually have. The chase requires us to pause (or dismiss) the present in order to work for that extraordinary future in which we hope to be better, more actualized, more whole, more healed. A road to fulfillment or burn out? If self-improvement excites you, make you feel more connected to yourself and others, makes you feel alive and fulfilled, brings you a sense of healthy ambition and ultimately adds to your life, keep at it! But if starts feeling exhausting, life consuming, expensive, and dreadful, maybe it's time to take a pause and reevaluate. When empowerment, self-trust, and self-determination become replaced by self-doubt, overthinking, and continued dependence on someone else's input and wisdom, you might be on a road to burn out. This is when it's time to seriously consider whether the pursuit is turning out to be what it promised. We don't need more fixing... I believe that the cure for feeling dissatisfied isn't in fixing ourselves but in understanding who we are and fully letting ourselves be it. It's about embracing ordinary moments, loving what we do have, and trusting our inner guidance. In those moments when I feel like what present is offering me isn't enough, when I feel like I need more to be happy, and I start glorifying what I don't have, thinking that it would fulfill me - I think of my mom. She died 8 years ago from metastatic breast cancer. I know she would love to fully be in this moment as ordinary and simple as it may be. She would love to just sit outside and drink coffee, cook a meal, spend an afternoon with her grandkids, make plans, tend to her vegetable garden, admire the beautiful roses in her yard, talk to me for hours. It's a simple idea (I'm yet to master irl) and constant reminder (at least for me) that embracing these ordinary moments and finding joy and gratitude in every day experiences IS our highest purpose. All the what if's...
Whether it's a hobby, a project, a relationship, or a personal goal, the initial excitement often propels us forward with great enthusiasm. We're brimming with ideas, motivation, and a burning desire to succeed, or sometimes - to not fail. But as time goes on, we encounter obstacles, distractions, and setbacks, all of which are expected parts of a hero’s journey. The road gets bumpy, future becomes uncertain, and suddenly, that initial burst of energy seems to fade away. We find ourselves facing the hard truth: continuing what we started despite the challenges. Now that is a whole different ballgame. Why does it have to be so dang difficult to keep going? Well, my friends, the answer lies in all the boring (non-sexy) stuff no one wants to hear: commitment, discipline, and perseverance. It's easy to be inspired and that first step, but maintaining the momentum requires consistent effort. It's in those moments of doubt and weariness that our determination is truly tested. In those moments, we have to remember the beauty that lies beyond the struggle. When we push through the tough times, we build character and resilience. We discover our true strength and learn more about ourselves along the way. We develop skills and habits that serve us not only in that particular endeavor but also in other aspects of life. So, if you feel like giving up or find it hard to continue… … take a deep breath (and/or a break, sometimes you just need a break to see things clearly) and look inward to find that big ‘why’ that matters more than a temporary obstacle. |
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