Always ask yourself first. Questions about your life are not for anyone but you to answer. Decisions are yours to make and if those decisions take you down the path you don’t like, you can always make another decision.
Ask yourself: What do I really want? What feels like the right choice for me now? What am I pretending not to know?
Imagine as if you’re meeting yourself for the very first time and you have no idea what the answer is. Let the answer come to you instead of forcing it.